A Time Clear To See

Its easy to feel so alone, if all I see is this single stone, Its crazy, to think that without sight, I would walk blind through this Life, Never walking in light, always knowing the emptyness of the night, The stones don't talk, so further I walk, I see at times rythim in rhyms written and played upon the fabrics torn and frayed, Sometimes deep in the darkest reaches you'll find loves touch magnificently arrayed, Without words a single glance at the broken peices will be what preaches, Ears once closed will open to hear the shouts within, for true freedom to begin. Eyes are lifted so high staring at the moon and stars hovering above every who, what, where and why, Sigh...Who am I looking for, whats the next page of my life going bare that past pages never bore before, where will I be, next time my heart soars from land into wide open sea, a place where change warmly developes new thoughts and dreams, Embracing the love that forever flows in steady streams, Theres more to this life than what These colorfull lights and awsome structures of stone are telling, Theres more written beneath the surface of black and white thats forever been dwelling, Stories told, seem to be crazy, boring, maybe even old, but One stands the test of time though, crosses the deep blue and reaches both sides of a plowed and unplowed hedgerow, Basic story of good verses evil, Who surrendures to whomever, their very will, The mountain path, the journey toward the summit that means overcoming, struggling, each mile chased by evils wrath, Giving in looks so sweet, looking down the mountain the walk appears easy on the feet, But only darkness can be seen far below, Passing by one or two, I try to tell them what I know, The truth within that has set me free, from the darkness that hungers for a soul that wanders aimlessly, They try to cling to my side, Hoping for a free ride, but its all in vain as time only strengthens my stride, and I lose those who have never tried, Never gave up their hopeless pride, Never asked for the light of truth to fill them deep inside, And so the story moves on to where everything in life will so brilliantly collide, Until the sun, moon and stars set still, the core of every living thing embracing solitudes silent chill, Where no more time is left to ask, or even wonder about a single task, For it will be a time clear to see, Life on earth has given way to eternity.

LIFE

Looking at creation my heart beat rises from joyfull elation, Here in a distant nation, I have a growing hunger from a personal starvation, But looking at creation I feel sudden inhalation filling me within, The sky opens up and rain pours down upon my skin thats been wearing thin, I lift my eyes and then my chin, and Tears fall like rain again and again, Upon my knees with one hand grasping another tightly, I awake just slightly to the sounds of a morning blooming, Warm breezes blowing, fragrances of life begin flowing, Gods awsome Beauty showing, My heart recharges by knowing, Today is a day the Lord has made, and though this day will soon fade, I will spend my day rejoicing and being glad in it, quiet times spent with God in whome I am completely dependant, Recharges this life half spent with no trace of where it went, What does time offer though but reflections of an already opened window, Opened by a director who planned my lifes entire show, Reguardless here I go, on my way further out there, discovering more of the one who was willing to care, willing to die to share, Life.

Take My Hand

Take my hand and walk with me a while, I'll take you all around the world and show you things that will make you smile, Take my hand and trust me always, when fear keeps you from performing on your weekest days, even when you see waterfalls and rainbows from rear windows, Trust in me, and I will show you how to live free, Take my hand and we'll walk into eternity, Loving moments spent by the sea, or running up hills longing to capture another of lifes many thrills, Hold tightly to what I say, Take time often to silently pray, My love for you is endless, I offer peace not stress, You will face many storms so difficult you may want to give in, Trust in me for I have given you all you need to win, When lonliness is what you fear, Remember I am always near, So Take my hand and walk with me a while, I'll show you true love mile after endless mile.

Cool Breezes on a Hot Day!

Jumping into supposedly the hottest summer anywhere this side 0f the equater. I laugh because I'm not there yet. Guess I'll see if I'm still laughing when June and July get here. When it gets hot I always look forward to the cool breezes that show up at the most opportune moments...Cool Breezes are a lot like the enjoyable moments in life...The kind of moments I can look back upon and smile about, despite the crap thats constantly getting in my face. Today was a day I would have liked to give into my fleshly urge to destroy someone. But Thankfully I haven't gone that far. I know why problems seem to pile up and get fustrating. I'm not putting on my armor every day, I'm putting it off in hopes of getting to it later. Excuses are worthless to God and painfull for me. I know that the fustrating people I face are there as a temptation for me to be foolish and out of control, so I try to see it not with the eyes of this world but with the eyes that God has given me. It gets tougher and tougher the longer I put off not stepping into the word of God which is my sheild from such nonsense. Even though I can't really find my balance right now, God places within my day, Momentary experiences that show me he is still near. Still pushing me to succeed. Moments that I have an oportunity to bless another person or moments when they are a blessing in my life. We have an Iraqi Mechanic that works in the motorpool near where I live and he braught his daughter with him the other day. She was real cute and shy about talking to others even with her dad standing at her side. He called me over to show her off but I was a little busy at the time so I didn't get to. I did later though and before I said goodbye, I told him his daughter was beautiful, which she really is. The look on his face was enough to know how he felt. Moments like that I really enjoy, and they make this road I'm traveling worth every mile. The days are getting hotter and hotter and pretty soon cool breezes aren't going to be enough to fight the bitterness of the heat. So I'm going back for it with greater intensity , Jumping deeper into the word of God. Because I really need it in this place. War is not for those who believe in themselves...it's for those who believe in, Trust in and consistantly lean on the saviors wisdom and love. Its a life decision to walk the unpaved road carrying a cross, being marked for death by a world that just doesn't get it. Why would anyone want to suffer and sweat serving people who don't care, People who would rather see you die pennyless, than live to your full potential. These are the poeple I have been called to serve, whether they turn a blind eye to it or they pat me on the back for helping them, doesn't matter because everything they see me doing for them, I do for the one who is far more worthy of it than them.
Take me away into your embrace, show me the beauty of your heaven in this place, Every day you fill me with your awsome grace, Opening my eyes showing me the evil that has fled without a trace, Awsome is your compassion and Love, showered down from above, I stand in awe of your wisdom and might, giving me the confidence and courage to fight, I'm thankfull for the breath I breath as I go your way, and especailly for the Cool Breezes on a Hot Day!

!Traveling Great Distances!

Traveled far, done a lot to get here. Thinking back upon yester year, I remember all the things I have been through. People I have met and would love to see again, others I'm glad have faded out of view. I started walking on my own with God almost 6 years ago. Departed a home where I knew for sure I couldn't stay...Now I search for places to rest my head as I travel toward a home that awaits. Iraq is the place I find myself today. Surrounded by people who don't know the God I love and live for. It's so great to know and really see the impact of people who do battle by praying on my behalf. People all over this war torn and poverty stricken place are going are being impacted in an awsome and powerful way, because of people back home and abroad who trust God to pour out his spirit and saturate this dry desert land with heavenly dew! It's really sad to see the smiles on the faces of everyone I meet. Knowing that they have lived a life unlike mine. I had plenty of food, love, and security...They had, and some still have very little, if that. It's sad because I go day by day listening to the complaints of people who don't have butter for their bread...Just rediculous claims of how life just isn't fair. Cursing God for what they don't understand. It's a problem for many when they get comfortable and think that they should always be comfortable. I am thankfull for times when I can step out of the comfort zone, and trust God to be my guide, my provision, My shield and strength. When I'm attacked and have nowhere else to go, he is always there asking me where have I been. In this stage of my journey, I'm taking a walk through a the wilderness...A friend encouraged me about this. Just as Moses and the Isrealites did, walking through the desert coming across trials and temptations the whole way. It really showed them where their hearts were and how much they truly depended on God. I know I need God, but sometimes I just give in and struggle for a little, come back, say sorry and walk a bit more up the mountain. I want this deployment to be a turning point. I want to walk away from this place grounded and disciplined. Having a better sence of who I am in Christ and who he is in me.

NOTES: Excitment fills my heart and joy ties the shoes on my feet. (She's so helpfull) Life is not just about words...It's about walking...People talk all day and don't get anywhere by doing it. Gotta put on the gloves, put on the shoes and get dirty. Fearing what? Fearing God, by praying, loving, living. Fear nothing for he is always near, always near...Always he is by your side...Always. Worry is for those of this world who don't know the Lord...Not for me. God set in place the plans for my life before I started to live it. Whatever comes next, is supposed to come next. He not only planned for it to happen, he planned for me to have the strength, the ability and the wisdom to deal with it and if need be, over come it. Wow...I love Jesus!!! end.